I was recently reminded of Paul’s words in Romans when I failed miserably at home. I thought I had my temper controlled, tightly packed away, unable to escape.
It’s there, just waiting an opportunity to escape. And when it does, like all sin, it causes pain and damage.
I won’t go into the details, for they don’t matter. I won’t try to justify my actions, for I was wrong. I won’t swear it will never happen again, but I will commit to let God continue to work in me.
I WILL ask forgiveness. From God, for ignoring Him in those moments. From those I wounded, for those I love most. From myself, and resolve to stay on the right path.
For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.
Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.
For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out.
For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.
So I find it to be a law that when I want to do right, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God, in my inner being, but I see in my members another law waging war against the law of my mind and making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members.
Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?
Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death.
For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
Romans 7:15 – 8:4